“In the first half of my life I moved towards all that gave me pleasure. But after the accident, the accident of growing older, I became cautious, preferring the same roads to work, a familiar breakfast, marriage. Because my memory is a limited resource, like gold or uranium, I go back over my life slowly, running fingers over the moments until I can taste them again. Remembering is like running backwards, an art I practiced with a friend from childhood, Oscar, who says there are just two tragedies in life. Not getting what you want. And getting it.”
- Mike Hoolboom

My friends had a 'first year party' on the weekend, they are so far away and I got all nostalgic. In my head I always picture my first year of university in such a warm perfect light, an exciting new city, always available friends, new experiences, the safety of institutions and mapped out paths. I remember sitting in my roommate Kaitlyn's room and signing up for Facebook for the first time. It's hard for me to imagine there can be any more periods in my life with such an amazing steady stream of discovery and it scares the crap out of me. But then I remember I'm looking for new experiences, not trying to recreate exact situations, with every failure of recreation I'm only reminded that only new experiences can produce that exact feeling I so long for.



Here's a pretty picture of Brigitte Bardot, 'cause I'm boring like that.



The first photo of Jean-Michel Basquiat really reminds me I need some soul growing, also known as, art making. My job is just taking up my life, I'm now working as a junior designer, it's my first 'real' job, 9-5:30, but it's more like 6pm most days. I keep telling myself I'm going to sew or paint after work or on the weekends, but it's hard when all I want to do is turn on the air conditioning, get naked and cuddle up with my laptop and read Google Reader in bed.
The second photo is just nice, no relevance other than the fact that I would like it to be my house.

Cubicle Lady Playlist:



'Be regular and orderly in your life, so that you may be violent and original in your work.'
Gustave Flaubert


primal futurism ss 2012
An 2012 inspiration moodboard I did for work. Oh yeah, I got a job. Tell you 'bout it later, I'm tired, but I bring a lunchbox and wake up at seven.

Clockwise from top left:
1. Helmut Lang. 2. Got it from Tavi, you know, 'newgirlintown'. 3. 4. 5. Terence Koh.
6. Lykke Li. 7. Rogan dress. 8. Terence Koh. 9. MMM. 10. Tavi, again, the last tarot card one is from her too.

ooh oooooh oh.

Beach House - Real Love
Let's slow dance and then fall in love, for real this time.


pick two
Guess which two I am.